Transition Madness
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Transition Madness

Today I finished chemo. One surgery remains. The toxins will leave my body, my hair will grow back, and I’ll get to call myself a survivor. But aren’t we all survivors if we make it to another day? I don’t know, but I find survivor a strange thing to call myself. Many people are kind … Continue reading

books / dreams / e-publishing / happiness / life / neurotic thinking / novel / publication / The Blue Jar / The Plum Tree

Validation, Validation, Validation

October begins! This is the month my novel, The Blue Jar, enters the world as an e-book. At some point, the book may appear in paper form as well. And what writer doesn’t dream of holding her book in her hand? I try to be realistic, but I am a writer and an artist. I … Continue reading

blogging / cancer / dreams / effort / fear / frustration / health / life / neurotic thinking / surprise / wishing

Must. Be. Meaningful.

I’ve started several blog posts that I haven’t finished. Percocet took over and I couldn’t think. And everything I write seems ridiculous. Trite. Meaningless. I don’t have anything to add to the cancer narrative. I can’t add any original observations. I’ve started reading two breast cancer memoirs. I finished the first chapter of one of … Continue reading

art / blogging / frustration / mistakes / neurotic thinking / novel / The Plum Tree / writing

Resistance isn’t always futile. Sometimes it stops progress for years.

I’ve been ignoring my blog. Maybe I mean neglecting. I’m supposed to be figuring a website for my art and all that. People ask me, “Do you have a website?” I feel most failure-esque to say, “I have a blog.” I mean, you can’t sell art on this thing. Sure, someone could leave me a … Continue reading

criticism / editing / effort / fear / frustration / mistakes / neurotic thinking / novel / plot / The Blue Jar / writing

Perfect Sentences and Other Lies

Some people promise to diet or to exercise every day or to be more patient. Do you do that? Swear you’re going to be different and somewhere between three minutes and three days that is all shot to hell? Mine is that I’m going to be less neurotic. I’ve been trying to come up with … Continue reading

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Is that the best you can do?

In high school I spent one year on the yearbook staff. I started the class really excited, and I ended the class hoping never to speak of it again. When my mother saw the section I’d worked on–the advertising section, which I hated but did work hard on–she said, “That doesn’t look very good. That’s … Continue reading

criticism / e-publishing / editing / effort / neurotic thinking / publication / rejection / The Plum Tree / writing

Editing Rehab

Hello. My name is Marta, and I’m an editaholic. I’ve spent hours editing, gotten lost editing, and been unable to remember what I just wrote after editing. After a long night of editing, I’ve woken up with strange characters in my head. During my breaks at work, I’d be eating my lunch and sneaking in … Continue reading