The Rewrite Chronicles: One Fool–Lots of Passion

There is no other word like giddy. Happy? Gleeful? Cheery? No. Excited? Pleased? mmm…no.

For the first time in a long time, I got to spend almost the entire day writing. Not staring at the page, but writing. The feeling I used to get when I was 18 and spent a few minutes talking to my first love–it feels like that. I hope that doesn’t mean heartbreak is imminent. It does, doesn’t it?

NO! Don’t take this away, too.

So, I went over a scene I’d written and–sorry for being an egomaniac–but I laughed and clapped for joy. Such a rush! Such joy! Yes, it may well be dangerous to fall in love my own words (bad writer!), but I did it anyway, and I was giddy. Giddy, I tell you. This is why I write–that giddy, spastic feeling of love for those words on the page. This is my dance of joy. This is great.

Sigh. Why doesn’t this happen more often?

Probably because we can’t take the heartbreak. Kind of like when that first love admits that he’s got a fiance, your words can show themselves to be not what you thought.

Do you admit to loving something you wrote, or do you fear looking like a fool for showing a passion that everyone else can see is meant for someone else?

Well, I love what I wrote today, and if it calls me at four o’clock in the morning to tell me I’ve got it all wrong, I’m not answering the phone.

3 thoughts on “The Rewrite Chronicles: One Fool–Lots of Passion

  1. Congratulations on your love affair! (And thanks for stopping by my blog.)

    I think what you are describing is called “flow” and it’s definitely what keeps me writing… or maybe it was what hooked me on writing, and now it’s become a whole different animal. I wonder if it’s about endorphins or something like that.

    But even in a love affair, you have those moments when you’re on top of the world and those moments when you are in the depths. If you’re lucky, you find a way to work along side your love/writing that goes day to day and takes all the bumps of life in stride and then you look up and it’s your golden anniversary.

    Maybe you’ve got the 75 year relationship that everyone always dreams of? Maybe there’s no break up inevitable, even if you have those bad days. I like this metaphor. Writing is definitely one of my longest relationships.

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