Experienced momentary blindness this evening. I took my first acting class, and unlike guy who told the class how he loved being the center of attention, I don’t know what to do when people are watching me. Well, other than teach. Hey, people are looking I should probably explain something!
We did a little improv. My partner’s fear helped eased my own anxiety, but it didn’t help me be in the scene. All I wanted to do was put him at ease. How do I stop wanting to do that? It was the first class though and being at ease was probably for the best. But I could sense the problem I have in my writing up in front of the class with me. I’m not trying to bother anyone. I’m really quite nice and acceptable. If I’ve done inappropriate, let me apologize now. Is that okay?
Okay–I write and want to be published. I make art and am having a show. Clearly, I want attention. Right? Acknowledge me please. Now. Then again, I can’t shake the guilt or anxiety that comes with that. Please, if I could just have a moment of your attention? Pretty please. I know you have more important things to do and really I’m probably bothering you, but if you wouldn’t mind… Ugh. There was the guy in the class who happily announced that he liked being the center of attention. That’s why he was taking the class. Another young man said he liked everyone watching him. Wow. They could admit to these things without blushing or stammering or qualifications. I’m just baffled by people like this. Are they kidding?
Anyway, I did my first bit of improv and didn’t faint. So spill your acting story. How do you feel about being in the spotlight?